Muses can be many different things to different people. Sometimes they're tangible. Sometimes they're not. Sometimes they're people. Sometimes they're objects, ideas, sounds, hobbies, or just a flicker of inspiration in passing. Personally, I have many muses, but, as of recently, my muse has often been a person.
A close friend of mine, who for now I'll refer to as 'Muse', has been my muse for a good year or so. Her support was critical during the querying process for my last book. Her presence inspired my writing, my current manuscript, and over a dozen songs in under eight months' time. Something about her energy complimented something in me, and both having her support, having her conversation, and being around her, and/or thinking back on her, kept my internal writer's light on high.
But as they say about "having too much of a good thing", my relationship with Muse is becoming strained, as the light I see in her is ever increasing with what she has inspired in me. Suddenly, I have become overtly aware of the difference in perception between Muse and I, and I cannot seem to focus on anything else whenever I start to write. It feels wrong using Muse as...well...a muse, and I can't get myself to do it. Though working on new projects is fine, going back to the old, Muse inspired manuscript is not working out as planned. I have no idea how to overcome this.
Have you had this problem? What did (or what would) you do?
<3 Gina Blechman